say the words that i can’t say
Monday, March 27th, 2006before we begin, i gotta say i’m somewhat in love with this video that Madonna put out for “Hung Up”. Wanna check it? Go to www.madonna.com, find her new album, click on “Hung Up” and you can see a post-it size version yerself! You know, I got no shame pimping for Madonna, especially with this video, which brings up the NYC club-kid in all of us. When I grow old, I wanna still rock like her, you know? Still be able to bring it with street cred and style. (plus the song’s got that addictive ABBA sample. what’s not to love, huh?)
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Yeah, I know it’s a little uncharacteristic of me. First throwin up The Pixies, now pushin Madonna. This from the little boy who used to say, “if it ain’t hip-hop, i can’t hear it.”
Sorry folks, guess I’m just moltin old skins, you know?
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Interesting week, all around.
1) Good friend of mine who I care about very much laid up in the hospital for 10 days. Not cool to see someone usually so strong in pain with tubes running into skin and nose. I felt for her, horribly. But all’s good now, thanks to surgery and drugs and her strong will to recover. It’s tough watching someone close to you get sick, makes you feel helpless and awkward. Also made me pray a lot more and really talk to God.
2) Back in the classroom on Friday. I got a chance to teach 3 periods of 8th grade at a local middle school, which really made me happy. Such a rush to be in front of the kids again, my stomach felt nervous, anxious, excited, scared, all those wonderful heebie-jeebie feelings that I forgot all about. (plus, these were supposed to be the ‘bad’ kids too, you know, the kind that cause all sorts of problems, the kind that teachers hate, the kind that curse you out in class and then slash your tires. you know, the kind of kid i love to teach.) And you know what? I knocked it outta the park. Man, I taught a gangbuster of a lesson, really some magic going on. Sometimes, when I teach, I wish there was a soundtrack, so at the end of the lesson, like Coolio’s Dangerous Mind comes on and the kids all come up and we hug each other and they all go off into college and change the world and stuff. Yeah. Well, that don’t make no sense, but you know, that’s how it felt in that classroom.
I’d forgotten the high from teaching a great lesson, I felt like a million bucks all weekend from that. I really did. And the best part is knowing that I can still teach middle schoolers ice cold without freaking out. You know, I try not to pride myself in many things, but I’m very proud of my teaching skills. I’ve worked hard to become a better teacher and I continue to try, so it really made me happy to know that I can still bring it when it counts, dig?
3) Work’s kicking my butt. You might be wondering to youself, teddy, why are you sending me emails at 4AM in the morning? And I’ll have to answer. Well, that’s because I was checking my email during one of my homework breaks. Man, I’m reading and writing so much, and I still got a bunch to read. I’ll say it again, the PhD ain’t no joke.
4) Did I tell you what a fun time I had in Seattle? I did, well, shut up, cuz I’ll tell you again. I love hanging with my grandpa, and seeing the great lives that he’s touched. Here’s a tidbit I learned from this trip. It turns out that my gradpa’s grandpa was the 1st Lutheran Minister ordained in China! Wow, I didn’t know that.
Oh, here’s another interesting tidbit. I have a bunch of chinky cousins! I didn’t know that either. Seriously, I use that word in jest. Don’t come at me saying it or I’ll have to break your neck. (And you know that’s hard core, cuz I’ve taken the vow of ahimsa, non-violence. So, I’d have to break your neck in a non-violent way, which, I’m sure will hurt a whole lot more. Yeah!)
And . . . Belluvue, Washington has a heady FOB population! I didn’t know that either, but now I do! If I were into gettin with FOB’s, I’d say, man, screw LA or San Fran. And Queens is played out too. I’m heading to Belluvue, Washington. Them FOB’s up there just itchin for some teddy action. (but of course, why the heck would i ever say that. that’s just silly.)
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Oh, so, I’m about to lose two of my old tattoos and it’s making me a little sentimental. I wonder if I should document them or something. Hmm, anyone out there wanna come over to help me take pictures of my back? (that sounds silly too.)
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word to homegirl S, who’s heart I broke yet still talks to me and treats me like a friend. Thanks for making sure I stay straight, even when I say ridiculous things that make no sense, and push buttons that I shouldn’t push. I’ve learned more from you than you’ll ever know.
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stay true, playa.


